when does it get good? its so different this time. its not the same at all. its this acceptance of what happened that makes me feel sick. i got on this level of happiness, we did. then what? how did that happen with this following? seriously, i want to know.
i dont even know
somehow no matter how much i avoid it, or escape it temporarily it always seems to replace itself right in front of my eyes, my nose, my lips, my body.
this sick acceptance drives me crazy.
i feel like im written in pencil, like im being erased. i AM. what the fuck??!
i dont know
im so out of it and not into it.
on a brighter note,
i am going to new york this friday afternoon for a hair show! its such an exciting opportunity for me. im going to be introduced into the industry ACROSS THE COUNTRY! im going with a few other girls from my school, but then once i arrive in new york im staying with my BEST FRIEND EVER, ZOEEEEE!!!!!! i am so excited to see her. i need her in my life right now. i need a reminder of balance, compassion, love. zoe always makes things amazing.
it's so hot here in LA. i have new hair, ill post a picture of it once my color is done. i also have new glasses which will get pictures soon as well. get amped!
and finally, id like to share this video with you guys, from theboobs.blogspot.com