teeth

i was just thinking about teeth
they are incredibly strange
i was looking at my baby brother's teeth and they're so small
isn't it weird that they come out and grow back in bigger? no other bones or body parts do that
if they stayed small people would look so weird
if they initially grew in big it would be weird also
and then we mess with them so much so that they look perfect, but they're just bones. i like it when peoples' teeth are a little funny.
it's just odd to me what a huge deal teeth are, and people don't ever really think about them, but they do.
i'm actually just procrastinating writing an autobiography for my cosmetology school application because i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT TO PUT IN IT and i'm amazing at distracting myself.
i finished chapter 1 of civilization and its discontents



gross, yo

aye.

WOAH

...

so
reading freud
reminds me so much of my state of mind when i was first learning this stuff. it's intense. separation between ego and object, stuff like that. i forgot about all that. i was living IN those concepts when i first learned them. i know many people are opposed to freud's views, but i think it's mainly that they are intimidated by how much he uses sexuality in relation to things we consider to be 'normal'. but isn't sexuality normal? this is why i like him so much. he acknowledges that humans, no matter how mentally capable we are, are animals.
he relates an 'oceanic feeling' (such as love, religion, etc...) to object rather than ego. ego would be one's PERSONAL experience, how one's mind views things. object is anything outside one's ego, basically. so this oceanic feeling is when the line between ego and object can no longer be distinguished, such as when one is in love, or relating to a higher being, or in any other state of not being able to separate the two.
i'm not even finished with the first chapter of the book where i'm learning this. it's crazy. i love it though.

what else is happenin....?
i hate cats!!! i had an allergic reaction to a cat the other day, and i freaked out because i was prettymuch positive it was strep throat, so i went to my doctor and was on the verge of tears, just to find out i'm just EXTREMELEY allergic to stupid fucking cats!!!!! man, i hate cats.

nothing else is too new. my life is in a grey area right now, i'm not sure if i like that. i'm working on it though.

hey whats new

What is new? I'll tell you. This white 16g iphone. It's the shit. I love it. It's perfect.



It's got a really good camera, the keypad is not that hard to use, the ipod is cool, there's a full calendar for me to put everything on, and it's got a straight link to my email. Generally an amazing purchase.

I need to sell a bunch of my clothing to Buffalo Exchange or something like that. I'm selling a couple pairs of Nike SB's [Dinosaur Jr. SB Dunk Hi's, and Money Cat SB Dunk Mids] so if any girls or boys with small feet are interested let me know, but be willing to cash out.

I have been laying in bed all day with the worst hangover of my life, after a night of throwing up and blacking out. Alcohol is not cool in large quantities. Right now all I want is to snuggle up with this one person and go to sleep. That would be purrrrfect.


mmm drunky drunk drunk

Chyea.
<3

janet jackson, i'm feelin you right now

Many new newses

To start off I bought a couple psychology books. Not the one I originally planned to get, but some others that will hopefully be just as good. The one that I'm currently [attempting] to read is Civilization and its Discontents by Sigmund Freud. It's intense. I've only gotten through the first two pages and I'm already overwhelmed with all the information. The one I'm going to try and read next is Beyond Good and Evil by Friedrich Nietzsche. Wish me lucks .

Secondly, this is pretty unimportant but it was a big deal to me while it was happening. Last night there were some HUGE bugs in my room and they somehow both ended up on my bed at some point and I was freaking out by myself. One of them was a cricket of some sort. How the fuck did a cricket get in my room? The other one was a giant moth. Anyways, it was traumatic, and everyone who I texted for comfort was asleep! eek

Thiiiiiiiiiiiirdly I drew some pictures last night that I think are pretty cool. They're of 3 people who I think are awesome. It's just something new I'm trying out. I was just super bored and went on peoples' facebooks and found pictures I liked. If anyone reads this thing, lemme know what ya thinkkkk:

MILON [happy birthday today!]

DANIELLE

ZOESHA!

yeahhh
i think its kinda cool.
oh and sometimes vidchatting can get a little kinky ;)

HAHAH

Today was my last day at Peet's. I'm pretty happy about it. The schedule there truly sucked.

My mom broke my bike which is fucking gay but I think I'll be able to fix it eventually, so OK I guess.

Anyways I found this picture online. This is my favorite picture ever, at least that I've seen so far, I think. I don't know why it is ...I just LOVE IT! I totally forgot about it then stumbled across it a few days ago and got super excited:


ALSO!!! I'm gona start reading a book. How shocking.

Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche
I'm pretty nervous about reading it but I think my brain needs something new to dive into, and I ran into my old friend the other day and he was reading it and recommended it to me. He was about a quarter of the way through it, and said he's been reading it for almost 2 years now. Fuck yea

;)