i cant stop missing you

basically.
i need to stop being so down and just get a slap chop!

TRE SONGS KNOWS HOW I FEEL.

whatdoyouknow

people are so predictable it's almost a joke. :-/

well, anyways,
i just got back from new york earlier this morning. ive been asleep all day because of the awkward timing of my flight. i had such weird dreams when i was asleep. i feel very unsettled right now, probably because of that, along with what i just "found out", along with the fact that i just feel generally unsettled lately. but its time to settle!

New York was amazing.
i took so many pictures, too many i think. ill be posting those soon.
the trip was incredibly inspiring. i went out there on my own, with a couple other girls from my class at school (sassoon academy) to assist for the sassoon creative team at the wella studio. working under the sassoon creative team was so incredible. i met so many people with amazing minds. i hope i can be in their places working with them one day. that would be a dream come true. it was almost a tease to be working near these people when i haven't even graduated from cosmetology school yet! when i post the pictures it will make more sense.

also, i stayed with my best friend ever! ZOE! i love zoe. shes the best person ever. i almost wanna cry because we're not hanging out right now. i fucking love her!!!!!!


OK
I GOTTA GO CLEAN
OR PROBABLY NOT
PROBABLY JUST CHILL AND EAT
WHATEVER.
IM FEELING WEIRD.
BYE.

04202009

NOW BACK TO SLEEPING MOSTLY NAKED WITH THE FAN ALMOST ON MY FACE. THIS WEATHER IS CRAZY.
je me manque de toi cherie mais je sais que tu preferes m'oublie ou QUOI?!?


BOIIIIING goodnight

I NEED A MASSAGE

THATS ALL FOR NOW

im not about this shit

when does it get good? its so different this time. its not the same at all. its this acceptance of what happened that makes me feel sick. i got on this level of happiness, we did. then what? how did that happen with this following? seriously, i want to know.
distancestubbornessTRUSTcommunication....
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i dont even know
somehow no matter how much i avoid it, or escape it temporarily it always seems to replace itself right in front of my eyes, my nose, my lips, my body.
this sick acceptance drives me crazy.
i feel like im written in pencil, like im being erased. i AM. what the fuck??!
i dont know
im so out of it and not into it.

ANYWAYS
on a brighter note,
i am going to new york this friday afternoon for a hair show! its such an exciting opportunity for me. im going to be introduced into the industry ACROSS THE COUNTRY! im going with a few other girls from my school, but then once i arrive in new york im staying with my BEST FRIEND EVER, ZOEEEEE!!!!!! i am so excited to see her. i need her in my life right now. i need a reminder of balance, compassion, love. zoe always makes things amazing.

it's so hot here in LA. i have new hair, ill post a picture of it once my color is done. i also have new glasses which will get pictures soon as well. get amped!

and finally, id like to share this video with you guys, from theboobs.blogspot.com
enjoy::

PEACE

inspiration

where the fuck ARE YOU??

my friend said i can do a tattoo apprenticeship with him when im done with beauty school as long as i promise to get hella tattoos. i think yes.

i think my next art project is gona be to make a huge collage of fortunes from fortune cookies....dont steal my idea

EASTER BRUNCH

me and maryam were both feelin lonely on this easter sunday so we decided to get some brunch together at my favorite restaurant...

bought some bootleg DVD's outside of the restaurant, naturally.









yummerz
my mind is going fucking crazy lately, this is weird.

Even if it hurts

new

SMILEY
SMILE!
the love just wasnt the same
i love you
this is good tho, it is.

I GUESS SHIT JUST HAPPENS

...shhhhiiiiiiiit